Almost a suicide

I have nearly stabbed myself by registering for the GRE on Feb 20. The gamble would definitely cost me US$140 and much more in terms of time. Although I have been preparing for more than a month now, my progress seems to be at a snail's pace. GRE is incredibly demanding on the vocabulary, and I don't feel upto the mark. It feels kind of weird to memorize dozens of new words everyday, which I would not quite be using in daily life. During the course of this preparation, I realize that I don't quite have the kind of retentiveness possessed ten years back.